.Saturday, June 11, 2011 ' 7:03 AM Y
& your love is all i ever wanted
so i have like deserted my own blog for like many many months!
hahahah n i have got loads to share
for starters i have a new craz its called...............ZAC EFRON
WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!
secondly i dun like gaga anymore i mean he is like so bleahh!
WAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAH!!
thirdly i am freaking bored!
so well todae,i practically spend my day in my room cos of my fever
which is not going away
jus had mac for dinner n i feel like puking
BLEAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!
omg mum signed me up for new tuition n the first lesson is tmr n i am
feeling weird..got like a gazillion butterflies in my stomach...ohman
hope everything will go well...gonna go update fb for now...will be back soon...
gonnna bitch bout nacli in my nxt post!
.Thursday, October 28, 2010 ' 11:41 PM Y
& your love is all i ever wanted
fuck this world man
i can't believe it that school has jus ended
i dun want it to be this way this yr i dreaded stepping into my class cos i was alone there withourt all my best friends i was among strangers but now i dun want to leave that same class...its like i have made so many friends and all those beautiful memories i will nevver want them to leave me
i dun noe how to make things better
i miss my gaga n i am confident he'll go to a diff class than me which means i will see the least of him and we won't be toking cos he does not even bother bout me he avoids me to the max
i will miss him a lot..i will rmb the times he caught me looking at him n how quick i turned my face away so dat i won't face the humiliation
i will also rmb the times when we both look at each other with some form of chemistry
i miss all the times i spent in school
all my amazing classmates who are around me who pplay a huge role in my life
i hate this! fuck la...my gals have all promised to always stick together but i wished dat i can make the same promise to gaga...my gals will always be there n i will always be on their side no matter what..but i noe this is the end of gaga n me...i'll always like him but to him i will be dead n gone
i mean in his eyes i will always remain as a selfish stuck up bitch..n i will always wonder why he hates me so much..
things will jus come to a standstill....i wished from the bottom of my heart that he spoke to me and dat we became friends again...i seriously do..
2E2'10
all the amazing people who make my day almost everyday i love them
Fuck FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK!! i jus dun noe why i am feeling so sad....its not that we won;t be in the same school but its killing me inside cos i am going to loose smth which i have hold on tightly to for a very long time, 1E3 was the best class ever but 2E2..is awesome too...
i am crapping so much here but i can't help the way i feel...the sense of regret happiness all the fun times we had the sense of belonging...its all going to be locked down in my heart forever...i'll nvr let it go...i promise
.Wednesday, October 13, 2010 ' 6:00 AM Y
& your love is all i ever wanted
yeah so tmr is maths exam finally
and then exams are over!! haha wooohoo!! but i hav a sour sinking feeling in me
everything is going too fast its soon going to be the end of the year
the same streaming the same separation
it brings me back to last year when i cried my eyes out after knowing i was transferred to 2E2 and all my gals had gone to a diff class
1E3 was awesome n i will never forget the fun times i had with all my classmates
but now everyone from E3 has changed its like i dun noe them anymore
especially my gaga its like he used to be special
he still is but its jus dat he is not the same gaga i fell in love with
my gals...thank god are still AWESOME like they have always been
hahaha
this year leavin 2E2 will be another heartache for me
all the friends i have made and all the people who i spent most of my time with this wwhole year
will soon get separated again...
but like i said i am a huge stalker haha will not spare anyone
MY sciencce was an epic failure
screwed it up perfectly
Sunday was the worst day of my year when everyone was studying n i was supposed to i wasn't
i was practically busy crying my eyes out
i messaged all my friends wishing them good luck for their exams n another msg dat proved someone an idiot
i acc sent the msg to gaga
i was soo happy to see that he msged me and then i realised i had sent him one first
i opened the msg n to my worst expectation
gaga told me to fuck off his life
i mean wad was dat supposed to mean..huh??!! its like in school he is practically a loner always seeking attention from the whole world but i dun understand why i can't care for him i fail to understand why he hates me so much?? cos i like him?? thats jus crap!
i noe its as though i am boasting or so but i feel that i am the only person in school among his so called friends that actually cares for him i am the only person who acctually looks out for him i am the only person who feels hurt when he falls down i am the only person who feels insulted when people insult him i am the only person who feels sad when he is ignored
i feel so hurt that he fails to understand me we used to be such great friends and now i have to get out of his life...when she dumped him i was not there for me that incident hurts me so much cos i could nvr be there for him at all...not like he was ever there for me
i keep asking myself why the hell do i care so much about him!?
when he doesn't give a shit bout me....
maybe its jus me, maybe i am worth to only be hated by the people who i love
maybe the only way i will ever get his love is by his hatred
i dun know...i feel all numb my mind is in a blackhole
i dun feel like becoming sec 3 anytime soon nor do i want the year to end
things are jus moving to fast ahead for the worse
i dun like it...but guess that is wad life is all about
we have no control over it huh?
i am totally signing off now cos if i continue...god knows wad i'll spam...haha so bye peeps
good luck for maths n ur results!
. ' 6:00 AM Y
& your love is all i ever wanted
yeah so tmr is maths exam finally
and then exams are over!! haha wooohoo!! but i hav a sour sinking feeling in me
everything is going too fast its soon going to be the end of the year
the same streaming the same separation
it brings me back to last year when i cried my eyes out after knowing i was transferred to 2E2 and all my gals had gone to a diff class
1E3 was awesome n i will never forget the fun times i had with all my classmates
but now everyone from E3 has changed its like i dun noe them anymore
especially my gaga its like he used to be special
he still is but its jus dat he is not the same gaga i fell in love with
my gals...thank god are still AWESOME like they have always been
hahaha
this year leavin 2E2 will be another heartache for me
all the friends i have made and all the people who i spent most of my time with this wwhole year
will soon get separated again...
but like i said i am a huge stalker haha will not spare anyone
MY sciencce was an epic failure
screwed it up perfectly
Sunday was the worst day of my year when everyone was studying n i was supposed to i wasn't
i was practically busy crying my eyes out
i messaged all my friends wishing them good luck for their exams n another msg dat proved someone an idiot
i acc sent the msg to gaga
i was soo happy to see that he msged me and then i realised i had sent him one first
i opened the msg n to my worst expectation
gaga told me to fuck off his life
i mean wad was dat supposed to mean..huh??!! its like in school he is practically a loner always seeking attention from the whole world but i dun understand why i can't care for him i fail to understand why he hates me so much?? cos i like him?? thats jus crap!
i noe its as though i am boasting or so but i feel that i am the only person in school among his so called friends that actually cares for him i am the only person who acctually looks out for him i am the only person who feels hurt when he falls down i am the only person who feels insulted when people insult him i am the only person who feels sad when he is ignored
i feel so hurt that he fails to understand me we used to be such great friends and now i have to get out of his life...when she dumped him i was not there for me that incident hurts me so much cos i could nvr be there for him at all...not like he was ever there for me
i keep asking myself why the hell do i care so much about him!?
when he doesn't give a shit bout me....
maybe its jus me, maybe i am worth to only be hated by the people who i love
maybe the only way i will ever get his love is by his hatred
i dun know...i feel all numb my mind is in a blackhole
i dun feel like becoming sec 3 anytime soon nor do i want the year to end
things are jus moving to fast ahead for the worse
i dun like it...but guess that is wad life is all about
we have no control over it huh?
i am totally signing off now cos if i continue...god knows wad i'll spam...haha so bye peeps
good luck for maths n ur results!
.Thursday, September 30, 2010 ' 2:52 AM Y
& your love is all i ever wanted
imisshim
imisshim
imisshim
imisshim
imisshim
imisshim
imisshim
imisshim
imisshim
imisshim
imisshim
imisshim
imisshim
imisshim
imisshim
imisshim
imisshim
imisshim
imisshim
imisshim
imisshim
imisshim
imisshim
imisshim
imisshim
imisshim
imisshim
imisshim
imisshim
imisshim
imisshim
imisshim
imisshim
imisshim
imisshim
imisshim
imisshim
imisshim
imisshim
imisshim
imisshim
imisshim
imisshim
imisshim
imisshim
imisshim
imisshim
imisshim
.Sunday, September 26, 2010 ' 4:10 AM Y
& your love is all i ever wanted
i wonder why i still feel upset when my ex crush ignores me
its like i am the person who noes him best yet he sits with other gals
who boss him around
i dun like it...when i needed my friend he was not there
he ignored me and he does not give a shit bout me so why do i care?
punjabi school suxx n so o the people in it
coke exploded all over me!
man i felt damn sticky after that
hahhaa....
saturday evening was awesome went to swensens with my family
had an awesome time
so monday is my sisters sweet 16 n i cannot wait to bash her up hahah!
sunday is sooooo boring!!I FEEL SO DEPRESSED!
my parents are pmsing like crazy n i jus cannot be bothered
okay soo my chin actually has started toking to me
but i dun feel the same
its like although now that he is my friend again..i dun feel committed
i am supossed to be feeling damn happy n all tat but yeah i am not
friends say its cos he hurt me way too much
and now all i feel is numbness
i can;t breathe rite without experiencing a sharp pain in my heart
that does not allow me to sleep or do anything
i feel so miserable
i miss my gaga! i wished i cud transform into someone close to him
or jus go invisble
i really miss him n the way we used to argue on the smallest things
my life is getting more fucked up then before!
some fucked up gal jus cannot stop showing attitude i mean its like
u r not tha goddamn boss n stop leaning on me! cos i noe i am fat n soft
unlike u miss bones! i want to tell u all this on ur face n u noe i am capable of doing so but i won't cos i dun want to hurt u!
i dun want u to cry n attract attention from everyone else
i dun wanna be the bad perosn but u noe wad
being the bad person is smth i have done my whole life
people jus love to put the blame on me!
i cnanot believe how much i am actually thrashing my feelings here
but i really cannot take all this crap anymore
its beyond tolerance
my heart feels so heavy n hurt dat i cannot even think or do anything that makes me happy
WHY WHY WHY?
i wonder why people who have everything gets the most n people like me...who dun have anything and yet keep loosin everythin...
gaga was all i had other than my friends
i lost him but i really thankk god i still have my awesome gals with me...
i miss my gaga so much
i noe i sound like a crybaby
but i dun care.....it was like he was my pain buddy
we wud share our probs n now its like he hates me!
WHY the fuck? cos i like him?
i dun noe i have so many questions in me n yet no answers!
i feel like jus murdering myself
so i dun hurt myself or anyone else..
i jus dun wanna feel this numb feeling anymore
i dun wanna be sad when i am happy..
i jus want to be me...n i can't even do that cos
i have lost myself in this darkness n i cannot find a way out...
.Sunday, September 19, 2010 ' 12:01 AM Y
& your love is all i ever wanted
yo peepo...
ok sunday morning was awesome
i woke up early cos i could not slp much
n watched my korean dramas!!!!
hahaha i loved that!!
and then in the afternoon my dad came home n i wonder why i was
so high
my dad was pacing up n down the hall
and i started making fun of him saying that he is running to be singapore's next top model
and then he jus stared at me n sat down on the sofa
n when he did the whole sofa shaked n i was like
this model a bit heavy eh!!
and my dad started punching me on my back
hahahhahahahahha!!
now i am bored cos i tried the maths paper that ms lin gave me but
i dun noe how to do loads of questions in section B
ARGH! i am soooo dumb!!
why can't i be smart like other people??!
nvm dat! hehehe
anywayy tmr is monday i am soo gonna get monday blues all over again
i miss my gaga
and the way he staress at someone from the corner of his eyes dats sooooo cute :D
and shit tmr i have home econs test n i forgot to bring my textbook home to revise i am sooo gonna failllll!!
tan skin and white specs!! thats the way he comes thru like weewit!!weeewit!!
tasmin got starstrukk with gaga boi so that makes me
tasgagaSTRUKK!!
hahah i am lame but like i said i am bored with an obsession of a super nice hott guy!
and i loove my segar!! hahaha
.Saturday, September 18, 2010 ' 6:47 AM Y
& your love is all i ever wanted
hey people
haha so sorry for not updating
but things jus haven't been awesome like always
but i guess change is the oni constant in life
well breaking neews
EXAMS ARE COMING!!
hahaha i feel stressed cos i feel so dumb!!
my life is screwed..ami supposed to say that
cos all people do that on their blogs
haahahha i am going gaga over my gaga
but i can't help it...
people around me are changing so fast its like one moment i noe them
and the nxt i am like who the eff r u??
people jus can't stop pretending
i dun understand why are they so shy of being themselves
whether or not anyone likes it u have to love urself first
todae i cut myself while playing with some box n i did not even realise my finger was bleeding
haha epic!!
its like how a heart breaks n u nvr do find out bout it...
woahhh...wadever i jus said was crap
i wonder why he hates me
jus ocs i like him
man he's crackers
n i can't blame him cos i m nuts
it will be an embarrassment for any guy to find out that TASMIN likes him...
but anyways i got my gals and all the awesome people who i really love around me
i can always smile for them n be myself around them
n spreading smiles to their faces
the rest of the world who has a prob with me can jolly well go and eff themselves
off the cliff rite into hell! perfect place for them!
hahaha
kay i feel like i m kinda toking to myself
i feel crazy so gonna sign off now
byezz!
